What We Thought We Knew by Claire Dyer
Author:Claire Dyer [Dyer, Claire]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Pegasus Publishers
Published: 2024-03-13T00:00:00+00:00
Part 4 â Late Spring, Twenty-three Years Later
Itâs Wednesday, and Nic Bradley slides the car park ticket into his wallet and then leans in to pick up his portfolio case from the back seat. Heâs unusually nervous, but he shouldnât be. Heâs done this many times before, but putting his work in front of people is still a difficult thing for him to do. However, as heâs sitting in his studio, brush in hand, he does sometimes wonder what the point of it is if he doesnât let his pictures speak for him. If he keeps them to himself, itâs like heâs being gagged, that the story he wants to tell is being whispered in back rooms to shadowy people and not, as he thinks it should be, shouted out from the rooftops. âI cocked up,â he wants to holler in amongst the concrete pillars of the multi-storey. âAnd I want you, whoever you are looking at my paintings, signed with the name I gave myself to hide my regret, to read this in every brushstroke, every shade of blue and to know this and know how sorry I am.â
Youâd think, he muses as he strides to the lifts, that by now I would have been able to let it go. But heâd loved her, and he hadnât expected to. It was supposed to be a mild flirtation, just something to pass the time like the others had been, and heâd expected that when it was over, he would have been able to move on, still married, still with his kids, still with everything intact. What he hadnât counted on was the destruction, both that he imposed on himself and that done to him by others.
That first night and the following morning in the motel near Birmingham â part contrived, part-accidental â had, he sometimes thought later, sealed it for him. From somewhere deep down, near his navel, something that had been embedded and hidden had come loose and a torrent of feelings had crashed over his head, and heâd wanted her again and again and again. He kept on wanting her. In the end, heâd had to try and persuade her to stop working for him.
âLook,â heâd said. âI just think itâs best. Itâs going to be too difficult otherwise.â
âBut it means we wonât see each other as often,â she said, her face open, smooth, loveable, her eyes clear and shining. Sheâd turned round to look at him, spoon in one hand, coffee jar in the other in the tiny kitchenette of her bedsit. Sheâd been naked and he hadnât been able to drag his eyes away from her. Her breasts still bore the blush from his stubble, her tight, flat stomach led down to where heâd tasted her. Heâd wanted to wrap her up and never let her go. âWell?â sheâd said. âWe wonât, will we?â
âNo,â heâd replied. âBut I still think itâs for the best. Tinaâs going to guess before long.â
Thinking back, it was about then that heâd wanted to start the whole shouting thing.
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